Past - Poem with no name - 2

I looked at my notes
With my mind afloats
Frawn I wonder
What is with this tears I gather

Slowly I move my face towards the sky
Thinking about my loneliness, thinking... why?
Drifting in my thoughts I then pause
Part of me then gone missing.... Lost I suppose

I fell in love once, but not to be
Love then becomes hideous, now what is wrong with me?
I then get tosed around and around
Bouncing between fake feelings, scattered abound

Again I slowly move my face towards the sky
Again with loneliness Oh... Oh why
Drifting in my thoughts I then pause
Another part of me went missing, Lost.. I suppose

The tears I have gathered have now flow
No!! It is definitely not for show!
Slowly I gathered my strength
Or whatever left over inside my tank

I close the chapter written in my note
I walked forth, cold, but covered in my coat
No... I didn't feel cold because of the rain
I feel cold because I still carry this pain

Past Today Future
History Present Mystery I am sure
This is past... a second poem with no name
I hope this is written to not be in vain...

Present - Poem with no name - 1

First Step I came alone
Second Step was full of thorn
Third Step I arise
Forth Step I am in dissarray

Time has come and gone
Only silence I can hear with deafening tone
Looking to the future I then try
Only Happiness --- Deny

Just when hopes left me with none
I see a light, Oh not much, just one
Very Odd it seems in people's eyes
Nay!! Trully that is all lies

I used to wonder where my step will take me
Not anymore for I left that to He
The One and the Only
Allah All Praise be to He